Annnnnee

I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I don't think it's because I miss you. I mean, it might be, but I kind of doubt it. I could never ever see myself dating you again. You're a completely different person now. And honestly, I think it's best that way. I feel like when you were with me, you were pretending to be someone that you're not. I was holding you back from your true personality.   I wonder if you think about me sometimes too. I wish you could somehow tell me that you do. Then I'd know that I'm not the only one. But you'll never tell me that. Your girlfriend would never let you. And I understand I guess. I'd have been the same

I don't want a response. In fact, if I were to ever get one, I would not read it. I'd rather not know. I just need to get it all out there. My whole life is different now. I lost my best friend and the first person I've ever been in love with, all in about an hour. I'm not really sure why it all happened and it hurt me more than anything could. I feel like I was lied to. You told me countless times that you couldn't lose me no matter what and that you'd never love anyone else. If so then why did you leave me? I don't think I'll ever know why you left me.     I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that I can't just automatically text y